Eggshell blue

 

1200px-August_2010_CME_SDO_Multi-Wavelength

 

blue as the shell of a bird’s egg

curved smoother than pebbles

in a riverbed

 

untroubled by clouds

watersmoke

redolent of ocean spray

 

sky arcs

an eggbubble

protective casing

 

stretches above about behind

and beyond is the black

the deep and the dark

 

where cats’ eyes of stars

stare blandly at the bird’s egg blue shell

silent as an empty nest.

Another element

1024px-The_Sun

Many fingered like the sea

a heaving mass beneath the coping of the sky

sopping up the clarity with spongy paws

 

it wrings sweat from the veiled air

puddled in vague yellow unclear green

dripping dry and crisp beneath the tread

 

this heat slows the workings of the world

like syrup in the wheels and cogs

silencing even the irritable crows.

These days

 

It should be enough the sun

the languid whistling of the birds

heat rising from baked earth and green shimmer

 

enough to rise with the heat

on birdwings lifting languid and serene in the sun

from green earth

 

they should be green with birdsong

these hot days dusty

with harvest motes floating golden birdwings

 

there should be joy after rain shafts

slanting steely cold

from lowering skies

 

when we listened to the rattle of hail

the splash of torrents

and a wind raging from the east

 

it should be enough the sun

the unconscious beauty of the warbler’s song

the ripple of heat breeze and leaf hiss

 

but these days it is not enough

to lift the heavy wings

the flutter leaden with rain

and all the little sorrows

sing soft and low.

When?

 

When will there not be anguish that curls

in restless coils in the deep dark of flesh,

never still, sleeping the sleep of cats?

 

When will the day just grow in its own time

at the pace of cloud and wind, not ticking

to the hollow rhythm of deadlines?

 

Sky spreads high blue, so dense it leaves

smears in the meadow; shadows beneath

the trees flicker with wings and fluttering songs.

 

No calm falls when the wind

blows, and the snake shifts,

and the clock ticks.

 

Only in sleep does it stop,

the nagging amorphous fear

of failure, unhappiness, disappointment;

 

only because we hope, is the edge always

just before our feet, the cliff yawning, and beneath,

the ocean pounding on grinning rocks.

 

 

From dusk to morning

 

Deer are barking

across the setting sun

a world apart

 

through the long grass

snake glides

climbs the fig tree biblically

taking the slender boughway

over the hedge top

 

in the path

yellow feathers strewn

midnight feast

 

oriole flutes an elegy

for lost kindred

in the gold of morning

 

small corpses

cat-kill

laid by the path

an offering to the night fox

are gone by morning

 

On waking

 

Something feels flat, empty,

sucked dry,

the light dull,

 

yet the air dances

through the open window

with the sound of birdsong.

 

The sweet smell of hay

sings thrush-loud,

mown gold.

 

Year after year the same

sights, sounds, smells,

and the waking is getting harder;

 

something is sucked dry,

a loss, a regret, a sadness

too deep and diffuse to grasp,

 

a fish slipping through clumsy fingers,

the flash of wings,

gone before the bird was real.

Note to a father

 

I didn’t think about you much today,

the triangulation parents/child has shifted

to another father and other children.

 

I am on the other side of the divide now,

allied with a father. Yet on the evening

of this day, when I have thought of my own man,

 

and his children have thought of their father,

I see your face, hear your sonorous voice,

and the years slip away into insignificance.

Privilege

spring clouds

I wandered lonely as a

woman wandering alone

amid the bustle of an exclusive life.

 

Beneath the stalks

stalk things unseen to me and mine,

the flat-feet

 

who blunder by,

leaving footprints, carbon and otherwise,

on the bodies of the unseen and unheard.

 

She wanders lonely,

even when she is not alone,

just on the other side of a comforting veil,

 

treading flat-footed,

hands over her ears

to keep out the screaming.